Title: If I Die Author: Erin M. Blair E-Mail: eblair@sonic.net Classification: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst Content: Mulder/Scully Romance. Scully POV. Spoiler: Redux 11 Archive: Anywhere, especially to Gossamer and various archives. Will be posting this to ATXC. Please let me know where this story is going so I can visit it. Disclaimer: The characters of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully aren't mine. They are the property of Chris Carter, 1013 Productions, and the FOX Network. Author's Note: This story is *not* part of the "Discovery" and the "A Twist Of" series. This is just a stand alone story regarding Scully's thoughts from Redux 11. I would appreciate any feedback regarding this story. Dedication: I dedicate this story to Gillian Anderson whose fine portrayal of Dana Scully brings so much to the role. I also dedicate this story to my fellow shippers. Summary: Scully reflects upon her remission from cancer in a letter to Mulder. --------------------------------------------------- IF I DIE... Written by: Erin M. Blair --------------------------------------------------- Dana Scully's hospital room Washington DC November 1997 Dear Mulder, I am sitting here in my hospital room after I heard the news. You found the chip which probably cured my cancer for that I am truly grateful. I have some good news to tell you... I know that you will be here soon, but I have to tell you now. I am in remission. Yes, you had heard right. I am going to live for a long, long time. The thing is what had worried me was how would have my death affected you. I know how my death would have affected my family. That's a no brainer. But you... What would your reaction be if I had died? I know how much you care for me, Mulder. I had seen the warmth in your hazel eyes. The way you kissed my hand...the way you touched with your touch. I feel the same way about you. I don't care what Melissa Ephresian had said that you are her soulmate. This lifetime, you are my soulmate as I know I am yours. I love you, Mulder. I had loved you ever since the first day in your...our office...when you thought that I had come to spy on you. If I had died, you would have grieved for me like you lost half your heart. I felt the same for you when you almost died in Alaska. I don't know what I would had done if you had died. I would have lost my heart in the process. I guess that we are both lucky to have one another. Yours, Dana Scully -- End of Vignette -- - Erin Blair - eblair@sonic.net - "The truth is out there." - from the X-Files